today is a day off for me in denver, colorado. the warped tour has flown by. i am catching up as days off let you do.
lately it is apparent to me that life is always beautiful, and i have personally felt it change a lot. for the last 5 years of my life it has been a long hard road in some ways. i feel like i am being blessed with things i didnt know existed personally and professionally. there was a time in my life 5 years ago where i definitely felt a change for the worse, i braced for the change and weathered so many storms.
i often feel like i have breached the edges of what i can handle as a man, as a weathered traveler, worker and friend. there are always a plethora of good cheer sayings when times are hard in your life, none of which ever help you feel as though you can survive. i think more and more, lately that those sayings only have resonance to those who have survived a storm of a particular severity. not only surviving the storm, but being able to breathe in the calm following thought it is often brief.
if life is a daring adventure or nothing at all....then my life would be the epitome of that equation.
all of what i have now, and where i am heading is a lovely thing, but so is where i have been.
this is not to say i can encourage anyone in the doldrums or the storm. it is a way for me to say i am what is left after some tough times, and if i am the leftover, then its all not so bad.
i knew at the outset of this year that 2009 would be interesting and forward moving. i had no idea i would be sitting where i am sitting, but i am ever glad to be here. i kind of find a degree of realism in people whose stories about surviving things and how they find happiness only when they dont claim to have any philosophy afterwards.
i certianly dont have and philosophy about happiness, and hardships, other than they do exsist. at the end of the day they are as much a part of life as carbon and oxygen. no differend no better, no worse.
as i write this i can only sum up what i am feeling and thinking with what a very intelligent man once said.
"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so." - Hamlet
lately it is apparent to me that life is always beautiful, and i have personally felt it change a lot. for the last 5 years of my life it has been a long hard road in some ways. i feel like i am being blessed with things i didnt know existed personally and professionally. there was a time in my life 5 years ago where i definitely felt a change for the worse, i braced for the change and weathered so many storms.
i often feel like i have breached the edges of what i can handle as a man, as a weathered traveler, worker and friend. there are always a plethora of good cheer sayings when times are hard in your life, none of which ever help you feel as though you can survive. i think more and more, lately that those sayings only have resonance to those who have survived a storm of a particular severity. not only surviving the storm, but being able to breathe in the calm following thought it is often brief.
if life is a daring adventure or nothing at all....then my life would be the epitome of that equation.
all of what i have now, and where i am heading is a lovely thing, but so is where i have been.
this is not to say i can encourage anyone in the doldrums or the storm. it is a way for me to say i am what is left after some tough times, and if i am the leftover, then its all not so bad.
i knew at the outset of this year that 2009 would be interesting and forward moving. i had no idea i would be sitting where i am sitting, but i am ever glad to be here. i kind of find a degree of realism in people whose stories about surviving things and how they find happiness only when they dont claim to have any philosophy afterwards.
i certianly dont have and philosophy about happiness, and hardships, other than they do exsist. at the end of the day they are as much a part of life as carbon and oxygen. no differend no better, no worse.
as i write this i can only sum up what i am feeling and thinking with what a very intelligent man once said.
"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so." - Hamlet
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